Surreal

If I may, I just want to say real quick that my daughter has departed on her trip to live in Kansas. I won’t go into the whys and wherefores, but she has left. They (she and her boyfriend) left at around 17:30, about an hour and a half ago. I gave her several big bear hugs between the time I got home from work and when she left, and of course, I was getting emotional. I watched her climb into the U-Haul and drive away, and I began to be overcome again.

I’m actually surprised I’ve been able to not cry a whole lot. My thoughts are with Whitley and her safety. I hope and pray that they arrive in Wichita safely. I don’t care how long it takes, I just want them to drive safely.

I realize this post doesn’t seem to be going anywhere, and that I’ve been dwelling on my daughter a lot lately, but, as I’ve pointed out in another post, this is the first time any of my kids will be spending a protracted amount of time so far away. I mean, 1135 miles isn’t a mere hop, skip and jump away, as it was when she was living in Ivins, Utah, roughly a 40-minute drive from the house. Driving straight through would be about a 16½-hour drive.

Whitley told us before she left she’s planning on saving money to come back out here around Thanksgiving or Christmas. I certainly hope she can, as I’d love to have my family altogether for the holidays. I know she’s on the road, but at the same time, I’m not sure if the actual reality has sunk in yet. I’m still kinda numb right now. Sometime, out of nowhere, I’m sure I’ll start thinking and overthinking, then just begin to get all emotional and cry. My only daughter, and my first-born, it’s always hard to let go and live her own life. She’s a grown adult, and needs to live for herself. She already has over the last three years, but especially now, when Mom and Dad aren’t close by. At least, for now, I have my iPad and we’ll be able to FaceTime at some point.

I’m sorry, I’m not feeling very thoughtful or creative right now. I’m just not in the frame of mind to write something profound. I do have a post scheduled to go up tomorrow, as I work almost all day, and I’ll be too tired to even think when I get home. Thank you for understanding.

Let me give you the motivational quote, and call it a day:

“You’ll never find a rainbow if you’re looking down”
– Charlie Chaplin

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